It's ok to be human..

Today is my last day in the states. I knew it was going to be this way, just hitting me now—who, what, where, and how I’m leaving, to up and move, yes, move to Haiti. I did my visiting, eating, resting, traveling, even, dating J while I have been in America, and it has been so amazingly wonderful, and so of course in my human weakness, today I’ve been struggling.

But, today is also a day for celebration, I may be struggling today, I may be sad today, but it’s only an open door for Jesus to teach me something.

I am already learning that sometimes God’s timing doesn’t make sense to us, but He knows what He’s doing, has His hands in our lives, and He has been, is and will always be there. I have also learned that God will give you more than you can handle because in the end, when we fall, the only option us humans have left to do is to surrender everything to Him. I am also learning my purpose in life, and that is to love. Yea, it sounds super simple, and you would have thought I would’ve figured that out a long time ago, being considered a Christian and all, but loving like Jesus calls us to do, in a fallen world is pretty hard to do. I mean we don’t even comprehend the love God describes in the scriptures; I mean we think we do, but we can’t because HE IS LOVE, and if someone has figured Him out, well let me know I would really like to hear your detailed philosophy of our Creator’s heart, mind and soul.

I say all that to just remind us that we are human, we don’t know it all, we don’t understand God, we never will, its ok to struggle, cry, not know how to love or feel love, fall down, get scared, because in our broken times, our Savior is most known to us.

So lets honor our Lord’s Sovereign word with our lives and “Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

I told you I had been dating while in the states, well here he is....